What we were once was earnest heat and something melting.
Do not pour into me otherwise
((for you know it too)
but letting yourself believe it is a different matter)
You'll call yourself the eternal snuffer
extinguishing our flicker,
but you may have just reset us---
And so I'll smolder like coal till we become the sun.
Look,
Im not pressing further into a point we both may already know.
Im not washing over arguments we've rowed to the ground
like planted seeds
that will grow into trees
that either blossom or fade to wither in winter.
Im just telling you that when it rained and we played cards
it was simple and you smiled.
((And Im so sorry) but now I have to tell you that at times I can live off your smile
like coffee and my bed and the food we made)
When I heard the rain's finger tips spit against the window
to remind us the outside was present
and the chill flew in
and the smell of rain mixed with your hair.
You sat across from me.
We played a card game.
Your eyes held me.
I was breathing the right way.
Maybe Im making more of a moment you'll forget,
but I hope to hold that once here and now forever.
